Story about Kelly

There are many lives already changing at the Beach Project. It is amazing to see the Word of God permeating their lives and hearts. Here is a story about Kelly, who I shared about a few entries ago:

Kelly and I were talking the other night, and she shared with me about how she wanted to come, but so many things stood in her way. Not really believing that God would do it for HER, she sarcastically told Him, “If you want me to go, then you do it God.” And he did, and it blew her away! Since then, she has been struggling over her salvation, and whether she is really a believer or not. She said that the only thing that she wants is Him, and that she is willing to give up anything to have Him. She said she had given God her life many times over the last few months, but didn’t really feel that He had taken it from her and she didn’t have any joy like she thought she would. Through our conversation, I shared with her an analogy of Duane and I getting married in front of many people, and saying “I do”. Then the next day I struggle with wondering if we really got married even though I know I said “I do” and signed all the documents. Then, every day I ask Duane “Do you really love me?” and when he says, “I told you I do”, I say, “No you don’t. You can’t love me.” I asked her, “Would I ever have any joy in our marriage even though we were officially married?” She realized that she IS a believer, but she is afraid to trust God’s love (because of things from her past). We talked about ways to practically choose to believe Him when she feels Him piercing her heart. Kelly also realized all the things that HAVE changed in her life, and how all of her desires are different, evidence to her of God really being part of her life.

More stories to come!